Sunday, October 4, 2009

arizona



well i did a great job staying on track yesterday. i even managed to avoid the cake at my nephew's birthday party.

but then somehow, i wound up having a minor binge last night. i don't know why. i didn't even purge. but i had one and i swear, i woke up so many times last night having a panic attack over what i had done.


so i woke up today, took some anti-anxiety meds, some diet pills, and went to hot yoga. now i'm back and feeling a little calmer and a little more in control. i've got a weird feeling about today. do you ever get just senses like that? it's not like "oh today's gonna be a bad day" or "today's going to be great!" it's not specific, just a nebulous feeling about today in general. i don't know how it will play out. ah well


so i went to target yesterday and got a super cute faux-leather black miniskirt in a size 2...and it's kinda big on me!! i might have to go back and see if they have a size 0.... AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!


well, i hope everyone else (including myself) can stay on track today. we've all got some really great goals and i know how happy everyone gets when one is reached and with how spectacular you all are, there's nothing i want more than for you to be happy!


xoxo,
rubes

4 comments:

  1. Hot yoga sounds so devine! And size 2? I'm so jealous!!! I hope you can stay on track today, don't worry about yesterday, there's nothing you can do except get back on the path towards your goals! I hope you feel wonderful today!

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  2. Ahh that's so exciting about the skirt! 0 is such a lovely, uncomplicated number, you're a thinspiration! I hope your day is good, but I know what you mean about that feeling, it's strange. And I hope I stay on track today too, and I'm sure you will (:
    good luck!

    xo

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  3. Thanks girl! I'm glad you're feeling better!

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  4. ahhhhhh take it back and go get your size zeroo!! congrats :)

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